No a baby, a real baby. Saturday, February 27, 2016. My world changed forever with the birth of my son Hawkins Alexander. What an amazing and unknown time for my wife and I. It’s all so new and different in such a powerful way that I haven’t fully grasped the magnitude of what this all means for me yet, but I will. He is healthy, beautiful and doing all the things a baby should be doing. My mind races trying to keep up with all the changes now but I am still way behind. When do I feed him? Change him? How do I get him to sleep? Do I wake him? Do I wake her? Did I do this or that right? Should I… Stop, take a breath, one step at a time. I’ll get the hang of this. I’m already adjusting to the chaos, well, I sort of like chaos actually. It keeps me from getting into a routine, for me a routine gets boring. I don’t like doing the same thing over and over again till I can do it in my sleep. That would drive me crazy. I want to be constantly adapting and being challenged, not knowing what I will be getting into next. This is where I thrive, this is where I need to be and I am running into this new phase of my life at full speed with excitement and confidence.